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[On the 11th, Pilouette watches as the the world and life she knew, her life, gradually breaks down around her, returning to its original state. But hadn't really been her life, had it? Memories, both real and false, flow forth mixing and separating and mixing again.

For more than a week, she had been Pilouette Panda, a rich girl with a father who gave her all the time (and money) in the world. She had two younger siblings that she did her best to steer in the "right" direction...but she had also been rude and nasty, looking down on those who had less. Pilouette had also been spoiled and arrogant, never satisfied with the things she was given, yet she was confident in her place in the world, a place she didn't earn and didn't need to earn. It was already hers, after all.

Pilouette Bonheur was the only child of a workaholic father. She went to school and came home every day, where she often found herself alone, chatting with friends or doing homework, doing exactly what she was supposed to do. She worked hard to prove she was capable and to get others to like her and had a few close friends who she loved dearly...yet no matter how much she worked or how hard she tried, she never quite felt as if she accomplished much and seemed to always need someone else's help.

For the moment, she isn't quite sure which is real. Or which one is worse.]

12th

[As the village continues to right itself, Pilouette trudges back to her apartment, keeping her head down the whole way. She does not leave. She does not want to leave. She answers the door when someone comes calling, but she does not leave. She watches the journal closely, but makes no attempt to broadcast anything herself. And the more she sits there and thinks, more and more things begin to weigh on her mind, leaving her feeling like a mess.

In her time in Luceti, her memories had been tampered with before. She had been made to think she was a boy and always had been. Another time, her memories had been stripped away entirely, left with only a small card telling her who she was. But each of those times, she had still been herself. Silly Pilouette who was awkward and nervous, wanting people to look at her and like her but not wanting to bother anyone with her silly little problems.

This was on a different scale entirely. Her real memories were more settled and she's starting to get a handle one what is and isn't real and it's hard to deal with.

For the whole time she had been Pilouette Panda she had been awful. Worse than awful. She had been abyssmal. She had been dispicable.

She had been a real bitch.

She had the means and power to help others, yet she refused to do so. And as she really was, she wanted so much to help others, but lacked the skills and confidence. But either way...she had been unable to really help anyone. Even in a completely different life. She always thought "Maybe if I was different, maybe if I was someone else..."

For a week, she was. And it didn't help. She knew nothing, learned little and had no skills.
Instead she was everything her grandparents had told her not to be. ...Her grandparents. Her dad. Her friends. She had forgotten her loved ones, pacified by fake relationships. Siblings that weren't really her siblings! Her beloved father who doted on her wasn't her father at all. He was a bear. That bear.

And the cultists! They had been in the village! She had seen them! She had scrambled around during the battle trying to keep herself out of danger, terrified the whole time. It hits her, really hits her for the first time that, aside from the kidnappings and the shifts...the enclosure isn't safe. The cultists had gotten in. How long had they been there? Surely the Malnosso had noticed, hadn't they, that the cultists were there? They must have. They had to have seen it. Did the Malnosso even try to help? Had they ever intended to? Or were they willing to just leave them to the cultists? She wasn't even entirely sure what had occurred during that week.]

[She needs to get out.

In the late afternoon, Pilouette leaves her apartment and heads for her spot behind the school. She sits for a while, talking to anyone who approaches her, but she's unable to clear her head. It's not far enough. So she scuttles back to her apartment and packs her small messenger bag, before heading to the forest. She's not sure exactly where she's headed or for how long, but she goes. She feels just a little childish, like a little kid running away from home, but at the moment, she doesn't care. She walks and walks for a long time until she can't walk any more. She slumps down, leaning against a tree and stares at the ground.

And then, she cries for a long time.

But it's not until she decides to head back to the village in the early evening that she realizes...she's lost. In her hurry, she had forgotten a map and no matter how long she wanders around she can't seem to orient herself. So,reluctantly, Pilouette turns to the journal. When she speaks her voice is quiet and a bit shaky. She makes sure to cover the camera. Even like this, she's not quite ready to show her face after how she acted.]

U-Um...I'm sorry, but...

I think I got myself lost. Um, in the forest. Th-this is probably a lot of trouble after...after everything, but...

["Can someone help me?" As if anyone would want to help her after all the nasty things she said and the way she acted.]

...I'm sure I'll find my way back. I just didn't want anyone to think anything happened to me.

[She sits for a moment as she considers maybe asking for help. Instead, she abruptly ends the feed and goes back to wandering the forest.]

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I'll help you!

[Luke is no navigational expert. He can't really sort through all of his memories either. The thing is, he remembers this girl from school and that she was Toph's sister even if she was insufferable about it.

Neither version of Luke would really be able to turn down helping a lady.]

Which way did you leave from the village?

Are you certain of that? I can quickly find my way around the forest, if you need assistance.

[Young ladies should hardly be left alone in the woods following upsetting shifts, after all.]

[Shinji spends the 11th quietly, mostly keeping to himself, but on the 12th, he decides to try and sort some things out, so that morning, he knocks on Pilouette's door to talk to her.]

Pilouette?

[He's a little nervous, truthfully, because the whole homecoming dance thing was embarrassing. (Though it was no one's fault but his own, he was just way too shy for those things.) Still, it wasn't a huge thing and it would be better to get it over with, so that's what he wants to do. He just hopes she's not mad or anything...]

[Panda isn't sure what to do, either. He's been avoiding a lot of things himself...family issues are really beyond him! He's just a simple panda, and it's weird in a lot of ways. He's not nearly as bothered as Pilouette, but he still feels really bad for her...because she lost him as a father, kinda, but also more than that...he has a lot of things to be embarrassed for himself.

When he goes to her apartment, she's already left...so he leaves some snacks in the living room. None of them are bamboo, but a bamboo leaf or two that got caught between the bags make it very clear who's left them. Candy, mostly, but there's some snack cakes, too.

Once he arranges it all nicely on her apartment table, he leaves. Panda in the night...]

[ She believes the past Shift is highly taking their toll on everyone — wether they were effected or not — and though Marita feels weary and tired, dazed from her venture into the asylum, she knows she is not the only one suffering. Though she is only on slightly professional terms with Pilouette, she still worries.

It would be strange for her not to because first and foremost, humanity matters to her and always has. ]

Would you like to talk, Pilouette?

[ There's a big ol dragon wandering the forests as well. And Pilouette may just happen upon him and his steam trail as he mutters and muses to himself all the while. Should Pilouette step into the mists fog lingering around the large figure that may alert him to her presence, where ever she maybe. ]

[ Toph has no idea how to deal with this. It was her first Luceti experience, technically! And it was confusing, to say the least. Frustrating, too. A life as a blind child born into the lap of luxury but without her earthbending... She was just happy things were back to normal.

In any case, it's a rare moment when Toph opens her journal that evening in time to hear Pilouette's message. She hadn't known how to approach her, afterwards. They hadn't even known each other, prior to this whole mess. Now she had all these vague memories of an at times overbearing but ultimately well-meaning older sister. A distant part of her worried. ]

What kinda person gets themselves lost?

[ . . . okay maybe that didn't come out right. ]

You're lost?

[Honestly, after everything that's happened lately, he can't say that he finds that to be too much of a surprise. That whole thing was disorienting for everyone, even those who weren't affected by it.]

Do you need someone to come find you?

What're you doing so far out in the woods, anyway?

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